I walked back to the preschool where I work with ten minutes to spare and decided, Ill just do it now. I am sitting with this sweet being I cannot support, and feeling so sad. In his remarks before Congress, Dr. Levatino describes in gruesome detail the procedure of killing a 24-week-old unborn baby. Im absolutely terrified of both scenarios and have been crocodile tearing constantly. After decades of keeping her . I wish I could advise a podcast or supportive tv bit for her to watch. We went to the clinic, me, my mom, and my boyfriend. If anyone has any advice, please send it my way. I just had an abortion a couple days ago and I was 7 weeks. This would have delayed everything. I didnt want anyone in the world to have my baby, I didnt want the guy that knocked me up to have my baby and I also felt a little pushed by his mother to have the abortion so instead of keeping him or her for myself I killed my baby. Mom's Letter to Baby During Pregnancy A Letter to My Unborn Baby: Here's What I Promise You September 25, 2017 by Laura Marie Meyers Dear Baby, There are still a few months until we. She was worth fighting for. I was accepted into a Masters program the day before. Best of luck! I know that deep down hes right but its tearing me apart. I dont know if you have lived in regret or relief of your abortion before this moment, or what feelings his opinions have risen out of you now- all I know is what you decided to do with your pregnancy, whether that involved him ten years ago or not, was your decision. Thats the last burrito hell ever order without any major care in the world, I think to myself. My boyfriend and I have been together for 15 years, we have a 9 year old & make about $80K (maybe more) combined income but yet Im contemplating abortion. She told me she was flattered but nothing could stop her from the abortion. But I already feel connected and cry so hard every time I think of letting it go. I just knew it was my girl I prayed for. My parents were very poor but devout Catholics, so abortion was not a legal or moral option for them for any. Then, my eyes glued to the test as if it were revealing to me the secrets of the universe, I stared. Did you end up keeping your baby ? How I wish I was brave enough to shrugged off the opinion of other people,my friends and family. Been with him for 5 yrs & hes still married to his first wife and they both share an 8yr old she wont let him see her since she turned 4yrs old but cries about her expressing how much he misses his babygirl. I feel like I have to get the abortion or he will resent me and our relationship will be over. "Please pray for this woman to continue to stand firm in her choice to give life to her unborn baby," the pro-life organization wrote. No baby should be murdered by its mother. I am heartbroken. im 22 years old and just had an abortion over the weekend. It haunts me every day . Just my thoughts ?? Every night I went to bed, I cried. i know its just rational thinking, but it still hurts a lot. Chapter Headings: I can hear your voice Maybe they never will. Your baby. I dont know if hes being dramatic or not but he thinks we will lose our home because we are barely making ends meet with one in daycare. 30 years old , Im pregnant now. my boyfriend has 3 daughters from 2 previous relationships age 10, 8, & 2. Thank you for this. Ive always wanted to be a mom, and already, I feel like I know you and yet I cant have you.. It takes courage to share your story, especially with so much honesty. He keeps trying to make me have the child and give my child full custody and I feel like he wants to rob me because I cant afford to have a child of my own. Even though I knew none of the other ladies who were there for the same reason I felt like I was not going through it alone. Before the devil knew me, God knew me, he created everything. but something I think people needed to read. Fathers should never be bored of their children. My arms ache for you. It hurt because I was all alone in it,the thought of it break my heart into million pieces Ive prayed to God to forgive me but still I cant get over it. I feel awful. I believe that ultimately, our babies are still with us in a spirit. Share your story, thoughts, and prayers in words, pictures, or video. He is also younger than me and nowhere near ready for a child and even moving in with me makes him scared. My name is John, and. Listen to your heart, there is no wrong choice. About Press Copyright Contact us Creators Advertise Developers Terms Privacy Policy & Safety How YouTube works Test new features Press Copyright Contact us Creators . I just found out I am pregnant at 42. Remorse Is Forever By You were my everything. The worse I got the more my boyfriend managed to show up and take care of me. We want to give our child the best life possible, and now is not that time. I think about it most days (I would be due on 30th May which coincidentally is my birthday) but I dont dwell on it anymore and do appreciate that for me it just wasnt the right time and I was not ready or prepared to give a child the life it deserves. And Im scared because Ive read what an abortion can do or affect my fertility. I too am going through my second one and I feel absolutely horrible, so I completely understand what you are feeling. Dimplez, The Gift Of Life By I went through every logistic financial, physical, mental to see if I could go through with it. I got pregnant from one night with a guy that I went on a few dates with. I cried so bad in the clinic and during the procedure that I still have nightmares and flashbacks often. My best friend just found out she is pregnant a few days ago and she is only 19. We just signed the lease on our apartment and we were planning a trip to Italy for next summer. Despite the fact that I used contraception, I still got pregnant last week. I have no one I can really talk to about my situation. How first and my first. I PRAY my baby forgives me for being weak And she comes back to me. Me too A M, August the 30th. I still wonder if o made the right decision. Some in the anti-abortion movement use the song, or . I told my cousin and she said that his name sounded familiar and asked around. Jocelyn, I cant thank you enough for sharing your story. He started to be excited about the idea of starting a family with me and even though we were both stressed and both cried a lot.. we finally started having discussions about moving in together, getting better jobs finding a healthcare provider and all types of different things to prepare for our baby. I dont want to go through an abortion again. Now I m just waiting for my appointment but I feel so shit , down and gonna cry all the time. Hi. A mother is a protector but I couldnt, I killed my unborn. Your words help. It would have killed me alive to have given birth to those children and given them a life they did not deserve. March 8, 2014 at 4:36 pm. Anyway, Im still mourning and will never forget till the day I die. I was accepted into the Montessori teacher training program two days prior. I always believed that I will meet my angel one day. I have been scouring the internet for stories because keep either seeing people who wanted to do it and doesnt regret it, or people who regret it all together. But its her decision in the end. God bless you and your family. And an angel to look after you, too. Don't Forget That I Was Here By I understand you completely I found out I was pregnant pretty early ( 2-3 weeks ) decided I was going to go through with the pregnancy after me & my boyfriend relationship changes drastically he started to become emotionally and mentally abuse. I took the morning after pill and it failed. I still do. When I told him I was pregnant the first thing he said is lets get a chicken sandwhich. Gone are the days when the wind would touch my face, gone are the days when youre the wind. At times I couldnt walk, couldnt eat, loss 9 pounds in one week, shortness of breath and felt like I was having a heart attack. He met my dad. I found this whilst considering abortion. Now she feels she let her self and everyone else down. I was 6 weeks when I went for an ultrasound .. and all I saw was a small blob that I referred to as my nugget. I had an abortion past the point of having the pill so had to have the surgery, It was the most painful time of my life physically and emotionally and I never expected it would continue to haunt me. I havent gone one day without thinking of it and causing major heartache, especially as family members and friend have now kids. Family assumes that I just dont want to have them, when in reality, now, is that no one will have one with me. He advised me continuing the pregnancy would be a danger and I decided more so on my own after talking with my mother if it was the right decision to make for the baby. For the first time in my life. Guess what? It cant be easy and its hurtful for the man youre suppose to be with to embed abortion in your head after telling you, you two could try again. Sometimes I wish I still had my baby. I am turning 23 in two days, on July 24th funny enough. I aborted my second child at 10 weeks 16 years ago and have regretted it since. I did have a moment of sadness and what ifs but ultimately I was so sick( 7 weeks 4 days) I could not wait to get it over with! All the what-ifs led me to deciding that the best decision for me would be to terminate. Hes worried our quality of life will suffer for the whole family. I was 5 weeks. I was pregnant for the first time when I was 29 years old . Im 33. Id give anything to see my baby smile. This brings me to a previous pregnancy right before this in which I unfortunately miscarried. I thought I was the problem. Please please please pray for us so that my darling would come back to me. I dont want to regret terminating my baby but what if I get into a situation where I cant get out of? There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. As opposed to most elective . I want my baby so much but my family are pushing for a termination as I should be having a child when the timing is right. 2. I never felt more disconnected to anyone in my life. Thank you. Im grateful I was in a position to have options and make a choice as a woman. But its only 5 weeks so its nothing more then a pack of cells still, right? Its nice to see other ladies have the same emotions and I know when the time is right my baby girl will come back to me (: This might be a bit forward and seem strange of me but I have been through this twice before so if you would like someone to talk to or any support you are welcome to contact me anytime x. I just had mine this afternoon. When I found out I was pregnant this time, I told him as we were arguing. And then I blurt out, without any grace, and much louder than I intend, Im pregnant. His eyes get wide as frisbees and he says, Wait. Someone please talk and guide me into a direction. We were in this sad nightmare together, weren't we? She comes to me in my dreams at least once a week. It was also great that you had someone to give you a choice. I know my future would never have turned out as well as it had, had I not had the abortion :). I cant quit my job, but I cant afford 2 in daycare either. I wish I could have kept you, but I know our lives wouldnt have been what you deserve. She told me he has a live in girlfriend for 6 years and the girl has a 10 year old son that is not his but he helped raise. I opted for the surgical procedure because I was told it would be the quickest. I havent seen her since after I delivered her, I immediately went whom and my sister arranged everything after she found out what happened , because I needed help so I called her.. The abortion will be via the pill (which I think is an awfully ironic name for it). It all means the same thing. Letter to My Child - Abortion Memorial What is the Abortion Memorial? Thank you so much for writing posting this just hope and pray that one day I will get a chance to be a mom again. Our hearts held firm. American liberals are debating the merits of "after birth abortion." On 29 July 2015, the unreliable web site Conservative Post published an article titled "Liberals Debate . But tbh, by that point in our unhealthy relationship I had enough resentments of my own towards him to really care much. Im in my final year in university. Common Mistakes: the word "i" should be capitalized, "u" is not a word, and "im" is spelled "I'm" or "I am". Since graduating, I was lucky to be hired right away at my DREAM job in my field. Its a hard feeling to know that there was energy of ours creating a life for 8 weeks. He comes at all times of the day we talk all day we talk on the phone all the time I would have never thought. Thats the last burrito hell ever order without any major care in the world. I dont blame you for choosing to terminate your pregnancy. We don't need to live in a big fancy house, Im almost 6 weeks pregnant and although I want this baby, my husband does not. The abortion debate has been going on for ages. I have an 11 month old and a 13 year old from my husbands first marriage. Its been really hard. Cry Of An Unborn Child by Gabrielle Kruger - Family Friend Poems. He promised me we would be ready later and I believed him. And understand that by forcing your boyfriend to do something he isnt ready for you may ruin your relationship with him. I wanted to give her grandchildren but that couldnt be my only reason for keeping the baby. And then I panicked. Mom, please listenplease. I knew that if I went in for an ultrasound and saw features on that monitor.. there was no way I could go through with it. I was its mother. I really commend you Shawn. A woman claiming to be pregnant has written an open letter to the "Little Thing" she'll never meet. He ignores me when Im upset and just goes to bed with that knowledge. My advice to you would be to remember that at the end of the day, and your life, you have to be able to live with yourself, so forget about what your partner wants and do what is right for you. I am so sorry you had to go through this. You may wonder why I say she.. We agonized over what to do and spent a week making our decision which whilst incredibly painful was ultimately the right one for us. All other content on this website is Copyright 2006-2023 FFP Inc. All rights reserved. I know I made the right decision but Im feeling really bad and sad right now. When I first found out I initially was a bit upset but over a few days I grew very attached. A 33-year-old mother of three from central Texas is escorted down the hall by a clinic administrator prior to getting an abortion, at Hope Medical Group for Women in Shreveport, La., in late 2021. Im so sorry your feeling this way. I have to go through a second one and I dont know what to do. Can I ask what you ended up doing? It will be 8 years since my abortion in July and I still think about it every day. It is a very hard decision to make thinking about having our fist baby but I have no choice. Sharla Ynostrosa | 01/11/2021. Out loud, we weigh the facts: I have my schooling, Id lose my position of junior teacher if I dont do the teacher training program, thus losing the ability to become a head teacher one day. So afraid. It is sad to see children God has made being murdered. I will make my decision within the next 2 weeks. I loved you, my first, my only.. I go to sleep the same way I have every night since I found out about you: heartbroken and tearful. My daughter knows that Im pregnant and its a very stressful and uncomfortable situation. A letter to my unborn child - you deserve an explanation We named you to help us grieve for you By anonymous on 19/11/2013 surgical abortion abortion 18 weeks Firstly I need to tell you that me & your daddy have decided to name you. Because I was born, because I can talk and breathe air and because you can visibly see me in front of your face, I had the "right" to take my first baby's life away. I decide abortion at week 6. A Hand Yet To Hold By Gone by The Head and The Heart plays, and I publicly cry at the lyric. Regardless of the decision you make its a life long one so be very sure. I have tried to persuade her to look at forums or see a psychiatrist to help her through the guilt but she doesnt want to be associated with the stigma attached with it. I know a lot of people do this to help them grieve for their unborn babies. Thank you for sharing your story. The dad and I had talked about having another child after 3.5 yrs. My significant other is leaving the decision to me and will support either way it goes but I just dont know what to do. I do wish I wouldve had more support during this time, mainly because my husband shut down due to his circumstances, but it has gone to show me just how strong I am and how much stronger I can be. It has the potential to work, but like you said, doesnt make sense no matter how hard you look at it. I just wanted to let you know that the decision I made was very painful and still hurts at times but that it does get easier especially if you know you made it for the right reasons. A letter from an unborn baby: fHi mom!, how are you?, I am doing just fine thanks. It was my first pregnancy, my husband is deployed, and I just happened to be going through this process physically alone (minus a couple friends there for support). We are both unhappy . Take care. That, and I literally broke up with him two days prior. Im in exactly the same situation as you and just dont know what to do. Letter from a Woman Who Had an Abortion. I regret my decision every day. Ugh. I just hope that I can. Its so unfair that guys help in making the baby. Luckily I was able to talk to my partner who was incredibly supportive but there were so many reasons for this not being the right time for us. Abortions do not occur in this time period, so the phrase is contradictory. Im in the same situation except with two different dads. Hi Sarah, Ive just had a baby (two weeks ago) at 40, I do feel age is but a number. He tosses me the plastic bag with my burrito and chips (along with several containers of salsa that I didnt ask for but he knows me well enough to bring them anyway), and asks, with little emotion, Whats wrong? I sit down and ask him to sit too, and he does so, across the room. I feel so torn apart. I looked at them and I couldnt believe that that potential was now inside me. Hi Kenz. Then told me I was over reacting for waking up in the middle of the night over and over crying. I was extremely saddened by the Feb. 18 Buffalo News article concerning the 36 actresses who intended to spend hours reading from "The Handmaid's Tale" to benefit . Again, I sleep in the same room as your dad that night, and when my alarm goes off, I get ready to take the bus to work. So please mommy, don't let me down. SUBSCRIBE: $1 for 3 months. The mother and daughter "were so . I think Ill visit an abortion clinic to avail of a medical abortion service because its difficult for me to survive if I have a child. Like you, I was always so excited to become a Mom and I felt a sincere connection as soon as I found out I was pregnant. Im at the point where leaving him is the only option because each day he tells me to get an abortion in person, texts, etc. All the best to you <3. The month before was the most emotionally and physically exhausting of my life. I ask for the pill and she hands me it along with a cup of water. The heavy burden and guilt that I felt each day makes me question myself why I did came to that point, if I was careful enough to not make mistake. It is a deep sorrow. I hope I only delayed meeting my next little one instead of completely losing out on one unique beautiful baby, Thank you for sharing. If you do it, please remember you are not alone and it does get better And remember (if you believe) God will forgive you. I was pursuing an academic career and never had the chance. Ive always wanted to be a mom, and already, I feel like I know you and yet I cant have you. I never talked to people about it after. And chips. My husband is dead set against it and Im not sure what to do. Its what he wants. I am totally against abortion. I love this story. He said he would be there no matter what, but I still didnt want to force a family on him if thats not what he wanted. Jocelyn Miller is a Montessori teacher in San Francisco who spends her weekdays supporting the growth, development, and independence of young children. We use protection and still Ive ended up pregnant once more. The technician asks me if I want pictures, and I say, I do. When she leaves to print them, I repeat the lyric from Gone and I cry more while holding my stomach. He walks into the front room while I am mid-stand, so thats how I greet him. Floating in your tummy, feeling snug and warm. He puts his hand on my thigh and asks, What do you want to do? I ask him, What do you want to do? He replies, I want to do whatever you decide. God bless you. Thank you so much for this. Do NOT submit poems here, instead go to the. Thank you for this I hope one day Ill find a way to be okay, I really feel stupid and sad Im pregnant and everyone doesnt support my relation ship.i now want to abort and sadly get over my man. Walgreens confirmed on March 2 that it will not distribute abortion pills in numerous statesincluding to some states where abortion is legalafter Republican attorneys general (AG) in 21 states told the company that it risked breaking federal law should it do so, Politico first reported.. Walgreens, the second-largest pharmacy chain in the United States, made the decision after receiving . You are raising two kids of his first marriage and the least he can do is to man up and respect your decision of keeping this baby. I am so heartbroken. Stay strong and stay encouraged. Dear Mom: Letters from an Aborted Baby Week 1 Dear Mom, I know you don't know I am here yet, but I am really excited to spend the next forty weeks with you and never be apart. Everything about the timing felt wrong, but even then I still wanted my baby. I regret having the abortion because of many things and I ask hem to have another baby even if my situation was the same but he said he didnt want to have a baby he was hart broken every time he see kids he would say my baby wouldve been her or his age and that kills me inside I cry for so many nights and days I still do. She is a lover of writing, hiking, spending as much time outside as possible, and going to concerts. Its going to be okay. I wish I had advice or something magical to say to make everything all betterI dont. Help us continue to provide this imperative service. I always wanted to be a mum I adore children but back then I couldnt keep it . Im in the beginning of my nursing school. Its almost the same situation. All I can think about is that Ill no longer be able to turn to her when I feel like doing something that stupid teenagers do. Today its been 1 year since the surgery. i feel deep in my heart that i made the wrong decision and if i tried again i know i would make it right. I told my baby it may have to be just me and him. My advice to you would be do it if YOU want to, dont let nobody not your parents or partner tell you what to do, take some time and think about it because it is a situation that stays with you forever. However he didnt. , I think to myself. Like something to be dealt with, a burden that was his cross to bear. We want to expand our family but we werent expecting to do it so soon. Thanks again for this though, I wish you the best and its great to know I am not alone. Massachusetts Democrat told to resign after abortion remarks leave parents irate. Oh Mommy please, just give me a chance Wish I could turn back time. Except for some personal references her letter is reproduced in full. That is a beautiful thought and may have helped me make my decision . Much love:). I was one l with you. I have a toddler and Im pregnant again. It also makes me proud to know that I was conceived out of love. Youre still with me, and Im grateful for that too. I dont want to undo my choice, but its still so hard to live with sometimes. I know you made the right decision for you! If there is a heart beat I really dont feel I can abort but Im afraid the stress he will give me will cause me to miscarry anyway. We cant afford this baby. I had not long been in a new job that I had wanted and worked hard for. But then, Im scared that I will have to raise a child by myself. I wanted to be your everything. Participate in the campaign: "All AGAINST ABORTION!" I was 5 weeks when I decided to let my baby go, I miss her everyday . My first pregnancy ended the relationship because I betrayed him, although he would never step down from his responsibilities , and thats how he made me feel. I had to. Featured Shared Story I loved this poem so much, it made me cry. Im now 11 weeks and as soon as I found out I was pregnant he has gone back to abusing alcohol. I texted two of my closest friends. I love him so much it hurts I cant imagine my life without him, he filled a hole I didnt know I had. Im ready,but am I really ready? I dont know you but it seems to me that if you went through with it, it was 100% the right thing to do. He is quite a bit older than me and has 2 kids of his own already. The Baby Must Be. I dont want to live in regret of having an abortion. I was diagnosed with a form of heart disease two years ago and the first thing I thought about was how it would affect my life and the babys life. I open it and see two pictures of you. I work a half day, then your dad picks me up and we drive to Planned Parenthood. I long to feel the grass tickle my toes "Everything about a later termination is already so incredibly difficult even just picking up the phone to make the appointment. Since I found out I was pregnant my life has been a living hell my husband immediately voiced we couldnt handle this right now, and though I was emotional about it at first, I knew he was right. He doesnt know the end result, nor do I feel that he deserves to. Im afraid that in a few years I wont be able to based on my cervical health. I also feel like taking that risk, that my baby is worth the sacrifice. I even Bought girl stuff.. in the end I told myself he was right. I was very sad.! I pray one day my baby will cone back to me. The connection happened from day one. Hi there reading this story made me cry so bad Anti-abortion and abortion-rights activists argue their viewpoints on the steps of the State House in Trenton, N.J., April 30, 1973. April S., New Jersey. Must be awful. I feel like you put my experience and feelings into words. The saline solution burned the baby's skin and poisoned him or her. And the dad is on pills really bad and i didnt find out until it was too late. I was afraid, honey. I didnt touch you, but I felt you. But I cant help but feel a deep sense of loss and regret over ending the pregnancy. If you do not live with your parents, but you live with a grandparent, or an adult aunt or uncle, the adult relative you live with may be told in place of your parents. I wish I had made the even more difficult decision and been able to hold him and tell him how much I love him. Im just lost. In my mind, Ive raised a child on my own, and even with all the struggles, raising her has been the most rewarding experience ever. I know my baby deserves a life I couldnt of given her now or at that time and I know one day she will come back to me, I get excited when i think about meeting her finally one day when we are both ready, I wish I had support here so I could cry to someone who gets it, Im 23 and I had my abortion at 5 weeks and three days in April. Weve trien for 8 yeats now and decided that if I turned 30 which is Dec of this year and I am not pregnant, we will give up. I go into a patient room for questions and Im told your dad can join me later for the mini-counseling session. And each month, when it decided to, my period came. Always imagine what he or she will look like. My room mate and best friend had an abortion two days ago. By Ronald Doe. I dont know where to go or what to research for. I dont want an abortion but that seems to be the best option. Maybe you're worried about money or becoming a mother or just getting through tomorrow. There are no words.